jessohjess asked: YAY. salamat naman at makakapag-update ka na. :)))) meron din akong kelangan na i-sahre sayo e. :P CAN'T WAIT.
Homaygad. I am so thrilled XD
I will not give up. I shall rise from the ashes. I will pursue my dreams.
March 7, 2012
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Hi, summer. You’re here again.
“BISYO”
Being a sister of someone who had already made his own name in our high school, I found it easier to gain a damn good reputation there. Instantly, I was known, known by all as the sib of one of the coolest guys in school. I was grown used to the attention everyone gave me. Always in the spotlight, always the talk of the town, and never the outcast — that’s who I was.
I excelled in class. There is no question I could not answer. And when one is in need of academic assistance, s/he’d always come to me for guidance. In the eyes of my classmates, I was the role model. Or better yet, I was a goddess, with a perfect family, sky-high grades, a number of admirers, lots of extracurricular activities, and ample time to unwind with my friends. I was living the life everyone desired. And it was perfect, by all means.
But “a life of perfection was not so perfect after all” was what I realized as soon as I stepped on UP. Suddenly I was at the bottom. No one knew me there. I was also failing. I was always the one being laughed at for the marks I got or the answers I gave. I was never the easy-to-talk-to or the substantial-girl-with-interesting-stories-and-opinions-we-would-love-to-hear type of girl. I was also ridiculed for having goals they think are unattainable. Suddenly everything seems gray.
The effect it had on me was saddening. Every night, I would go straight to bed, crying silently to sleep, trying to remember where I went wrong. I was starved. I missed the power, the days where I reigned my territory, where everything was easier and far from being stressed. I longed for the reputation I had, a type of reputation where I need not put so much effort to be the center of attention because I already was one. Attention… It had become one of my vices. I got too used to being popular that I was struggling trying to adjust in my new environment, now being just an average Jane, with people doing better and looking better than I.
Now my college life’s messed up, and so is my future. I had my plans, but things just won’t work as I imagined it would be. I used to think I was wise enough to surpass every challenge I was thrown at, since I was number one before, but, no, because college, my friends, is a different story.
August 22, 2011
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May 21, 2011
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jessohjess asked: hey bebekoh! i just finished reading some of your blogs (like you told me to).. and i can't believe how much i've missed listening to your stories about HIM. :)) i really miss you. NO KIDDING.
Namimiss mo rants ko? Ako nga hindi ko namimiss sarili kong mga stories tungkol sa kanya. HAHAHA XD Sige, malapit-lapit na rin tapos ng class ko, and I will assure you na magsasawa ka sa’kin sa kakakwento about him again :)) Miss you!
April 29, 2011
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BEAT THE HEAT!Join the UP Pep Drummers!
We’ll accept applicants until April 28.
5pm, UP Gym.
*Wear jogging attire. Yeah, coz we’re not just hitting the drums. We’ll do stuff to have an awesome body! Workout wont be that heavy, promise.
ISKO’T ISKA, spread the word!
SUPPORT THE UAAP SEASON 74 UP VARSITY TEAMS!
See you! :DSOBRANG GUSTO KO TALAGANG MAGING DRUMMER! :D
I’m too late. :| Sana they still accept applicants. I seriously want to become a UP Pep Drummer XD =))
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i-want-happiness asked: follow me back! :D
Done! :D
April 26, 2011
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Or So I Thought
I’m okay! I’ve finally found myself again. I’m back to living a productive life day after day. I’ve sought for bliss and that’s what I’ve got now, at last. Or is it just an illusion, a mere image my mind created in order to cover up the misery, that, sadly, cannot be seen by some random people, even someone also known as “me?”
So, how many times have I heard myself say, “This has got to stop?” Perhaps, it’s so many I got tired of counting. I’m blaming my stupid self for falling so foolishly, no, not WITH him, the right term is FOR him. Maya, you should’ve known better. I know that I know better, so I try to keep him out of my life as much as possible. And that is just what I keep on doing. Everytime I catch myself going crazy for him, I psychologically shake my head off and command myself to mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically FOCUS. Whenever I think of him, I try my hardest to think of everything else except him. It does work. But as soon as the tiniest memory of him strikes the “blissful, problem-free” me, I’d automatically descend back to point A, no matter how far I’ve gone. That’s just how impossible it is to delete him out of my system.
Am I a masochist for letting myself love him? You can say that. I don’t even know why I bother signing in on Facebook every now and then just to have a look on what he’s doing, or letting the public utility vehicle I’m riding to make a round trip, hoping my friend Coincidence would help me take a glimpse of him. But let me just remind you, dear reader, that all this time, I’ve been trying not to love him anymore. The only problem is I just can’t. So, what now? Will this be an “ever-fixed mark,” as Shakespeare called it, that I will have to live with for the rest of my life?
And then Maya’s Overthinking Moments were temporarily put into a sudden halt. As I was clicking friends’ Facebook pages, yup, you got that right. Booger. My Booger. He pm-ed me. Here we go again. Back to point A.
Meet my younger brother! :3
